“I can’t seem to face up to the facts. I’m tense and nervous and I can’t relax.”*
I’m at the point where my care and concern about the outcome of this election is wreaking havoc with whatever peace of mind I’ve mustered in the course of the past year. Projecting ahead to worst case scenario (as I envision it) is certainly not very zen-like.
But wait a second–I am having just as many real-time “in the moment” experiences full of anger and angst that rival my future nightmare of a vision. Maybe it’s time for a sit-down with myself.
Q: You know what you should do, for starters. Why don’t you turn off the media?
A: But I want to be informed! And you know how hard it is to shut down the computer. Besides, I love my New York Times weekend subscription. It’s a real newspaper! I can turn the pages!
Q: So how about an hour at a time? Remember that? Look at the top of the screen.
A: OK. I’ll try. There are so many things that are on my To Do list. I am starting to feel that they are pointless. Remember that line in “Annie Hall” where the young Alvy Singer refuses to do his homework?: “Well, the universe is everything, and if it’s expanding, someday it will break apart and that would be the end of everything!” That’s how I feel lately.
Q: Pointless? So, you’re giving all your power away to outside sources and things beyond your control. Nothing has meaning unless you say so.
A: That’s the point. I give so much meaning to everything important to me that I want others to see how personal it is.
Q: Personal to you.
A: Well, yes. And so many people agree with me. I see them all on Facebook. I surround myself with them to feel safe.
Q: So, do you think you can change opinions by expressing yourself?
A: I hope so.
Q: And who are you pointing at when you do this?
A: The people out there with no moral compass, and/or no brains in their heads. It’s all about winning their hearts and minds. Also, probably more than a few people I care about, who do not fit these two categories. I really can’t figure them out.
Q: How about if we put the moral compass away? It’s not pointless, but maybe it’s time to point less. When the time comes on November 6th, take the action: Vote. And let go of the result. How does that sound?
A: It sounds difficult. But I see your point.
* lyrics to “Psycho Killer” /Talking Heads