BarnZen Resolve

For an entire month I had next to no internet access, by both choice and geography. Now I am back home, and the siren song of the computer has me doing some serious contemplation. After an initial rush back into its cyber-arms for a few hedonistic days, I sit here now, feeling a bit tawdry. It is the chief enabler to my scattered focus.

While my email auto-response setting for July was “vacation reply,” it was not R & R all the time at Neil’s barn. In fact, I worked almost every day. It just didn’t feel like work. I like to putter, and so I did…to a fare-thee-well, literally. I helped decide what the overstuffed kitchen cabinets needed (or rather, didn’t need) and loaded the truck for the drive to Good Will. Ditto for linens and clothing. I organized and arranged the kitchen, the guest rooms, and most fun of all, tackled the bookshelves Neil had made from barn timber, now stuffed with every book he had acquired since his English Lit major days at ASU in the mid-1970s. I categorized them to suit my OCD and discovered gems that are now on my reading list, next time I visit.

I also wrote, a lot, on legal pads with pens. This is standard operating procedure with me anyway, but the editing, the ren ma, took on a different, slower pace.

A more literal kind of polishing became a zen experience as well. With a squirt bottle of diluted Murphy’s Oil, I wiped down all the exposed wood: beams and rafters, stairs and window sills, so that everything gleamed and glowed with content. Myself, included.

And then, a glass of wine and a book in the swing, a jump in the secret swimming hole, or a walk down the road to pick wild flowers for the old bottles Neil had unearthed.

Yes, it is going to be a challenge, but I want to use my computer as a tool, and not a playground filled with quicksand. I hope I don’t have to resort to a timer set for an hour with a buzzer going off. Not after the only buzz for a month being the wings of hummingbirds and bees.


Sharing my art and writing in a loosely gathered way that allows for meandering and taking the scenic route, I try to be mindful, meaningful, but still, at times, playful.
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4 Responses to BarnZen Resolve

  1. Cranky Cuss says:

    “I want to use my computer as a tool, and not a playground filled with quicksand.”

    Boy, do I understand that, especially today. I hope you’re much better at finding the balance than I am.

  2. DIRNDL SKIRT says:

    It’s hard, Cranky, after we’ve been rewired. And I do believe that has happened to our brains in ways that scientists are proving. Next generation won’t have our problem. But they’ll have different ones.

  3. Thomas Ross says:

    I share your love/hate relationship with all things tech and the vast time-sucking thing that is the internet. The biggest upside though is that it’s brought me connections with good and interesting people like you.

    Just have to find and hold the balance, I guess.

    Great post.


  4. DIRNDL SKIRT says:

    Tom ~ I think you nailed it. As with all things, finding the balance is key, and leaves it up to the individual. Thanks for your (always thoughtful) reply, not to mention the compliment 🙂

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